For the past few hours, I’ve been in an uncontrollable “feeling fat” mood.
I’m spaced out, not talkative, and just hyper critical of every angle.
Sometimes I honestly really really miss my eating disorder, but then I remember- this is how I felt all hours of the day. I would have nightmares about eating certain foods and I couldn’t carry a conversation.
Recovery is worth it, but I’m really not feeling too great right now.
And I’m wondering if perhaps I should lose weight?